My names Maegan Beale, I’m an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach and a Yoga Teacher. I’m a nutrition nerd and a yoga and meditation addict. My mission is to help people find health, wellness, self love and happiness and to also show people how to heal their body and mind naturally. I believe that in order to a happy life its all about finding your balance and being your true authentic self. The key to health is true happiness and true happiness comes from a commitment to you own self love and self worth. I wake up each morning with the intention to live from my heart. I have started this blog because I want to share my story with any one who wants to read, I then want to use this blog to write about my journey to wellness, what currently interests me, what I’m learning, recipes and more.
This year has been a roller coaster for me so I’ll start from the beginning.
It all started in 2014. It seemed that at least once a week, usually on the weekend after a long week of work I would feel sick and end up in bed. Initially I thought my immune system was down as this happened regularly so I decided to go to the doctor and explain my situation. The doctor didn’t think it was my immune system but suggested I go on strong antibiotics that not only killed the bad bacteria in my body, but also the good. I felt I had no choice so I went on the antibiotics and felt extremely nauseous the whole time I was taking them. I did feel better for a couple of weeks but then not long after I was getting sick again and feeling nauseous all the time.
Now, I’ve never been a big girl but I’m quite short and a few years back I got to a size 10-12, which for me just didn’t feel right. For some reason back then I found it really difficult to lose the extra weight I had put on. Fast forward to recent times and the beginning of “my sickness” I managed to lose 6kg in 5 weeks. The weight fell off me and this was abnormal and unexpected. This trend of weight loss continued for a while, but I didn’t realise how bad this was about to get. I was about to become the sickest I’ve ever been in my life.
After new years I was so ill that I decided to take two weeks off work to rest my body and recover. Two weeks turned into 5 months! I ended up feeling the worst I had ever felt, I felt sick and extremely nauseous everyday, my stomach was so bad words can’t describe the feeling. My whole body felt like crap... I would go to the doctors everyday bawling my eyes out begging for some magic pill that would make me feel better, so the doctor would give me drug after drug but nothing worked. It was so frustrating knowing there are ways to cure cancer nowadays but the doctor could not help me! I was sick day after day and was bed ridden for a couple of months. I could hardly drive 10 minutes away from home without my body screaming at me to go back to bed. I honestly thought I was dying and thought my body was going to give up on me any day.
THEN I WAS DIAGNOSED. My doctor referred me to be tested for gluten intolerance which involved a breath test, amongst other things and it was discovered that I suffered from fructose malabsorption. I had never had any allergies to food before, with the exception of nuts so I didn’t understand how this could occur so suddenly. I’ve since been told that your digestive system can change over time. Everyone who is diagnosed with fructose malabsorption will have a different story and may not necessarily suffer as badly as I did. I had to heal myself naturally with good healthy fructose free/gluten free foods. My diagnosis was only the start of my journey but it did offer a path to move forward. Even after the diagnosis I was still ill and had many up and down days. When I thought that the worst was behind me I would become sick again and the whole process would repeat. In addition to this I developed an anxiety disorder which only made things worse. The doctor had previously warned me that it would likely be a long road to recovery, due to the fact that I had essentially been poisoning my body for the last year and as such had destroyed many natural digestive enzymes (digestive enzymes are what help your body absorb nutrition and digest food and create energy). It turned out the doctor was right…
My social life was crap and I would never know when I would become ill. I would have good days and bad days, but found myself regularly cancelling on my friends at the last minute. When I did manage to see my friends it was always really hard because they wanted to know how I was doing and how I was recovering. I know they were trying to be supportive but I was always on the verge of tears when they would ask how I was. The truth is that seeing them was like my little escape time from being ‘the sick person’ so I didn’t want to talk about it. It was also really hard listening to all the cool things they were doing and the things they were accomplishing when I wasn’t doing anything, I loved that they were doing well but my life was at a stand still. My boyfriend that I’ve been with for over 7 years was my lifesaver, as well as my mum and the rest of my family. If I hadn’t had them during that period of my life I have no idea what I would have done. I tell them I appreciate them all the time.
ANYWAY, I had also been working a job full-time for over 4 years that I absolutely hated. It was killing my spirit and soul but I persevered. I thought you had to be a very lucky person to love your job, and being an adult I decided to suck it up and keep going. I was so unhappy... I feel this contributed in a significant way to my state of mind and found it so hard to recover because my body was drained.
IT DOES GET BETTER. I started seeing a dietician and as it turns out she suffered from the same condition. We didn’t just talk about food as she wanted to get to know me and get to know how I felt about different things in my life. She would ask ‘why don’t you get a new job? How are you meant to live a life and get up everyday if you hate your job’? I would say ‘’ well I feel like a lot of people hate their job and that’s just the way it is’’ and she said ‘’ I feel very sorry for those people and it doesn’t have to be that way at all’’. It actually took a while for it to sink in but then suddenly one day it just CLICKED and I realised I would never recover without having positive influences in my life. It was crazy how whenever I did something that made me unhappy my health would suffer. Nowadays, I feel so in tune with my body. I know now what my body wants and what my body doesn’t want. I couldn’t believe how I had been living for the past 4 years. As much as your family want you to be happy they also want you to have a stable income so as much as they didn’t realise it at the time they defiantly contributed to me staying in a job that I hated. Its not to say I didn’t have goals, it was my dream to open up a clothing boutique and I even completed a Diploma in Fashion Business and had nearly half of the savings I needed to open up my store but I had planned to stay in that job for at least a few more years…a few more torturous years… but things have changed. I no longer plan to open up a store at this stage as I’m on a completely different path. It was unexpected but I couldn’t be any happier with my new plans for the future. More on that shortly...
So after I had my diet under control and had gained some energy I decided I wanted to find my self again and work hard on my relationship with myself, I started doing new things that I had never done before. I started doing yoga …I had no idea how much yoga would help me, from the moment I first tried it I started practising everyday wether it was at home or in a studio, It helped relax me and almost rid me of my anxiety issues and it was also really nice to have a new hobby that I had such a connection to. I also started to meditate and read heaps of self-help books and would research other people’s stories, similar ones and not similar ones. I did this because it made me feel not alone on my journey. I then decided I needed a positive attitude and to stop feeling sorry for myself. I looked at it as though everyone has a difficult story at some time in his or her life and this just must happen to be mine and I have to be strong and positive to get through it as quickly as possible.
After I had worked really hard to have a positive mind set and realised the importance and meaning of self love, it was amazing how much things changed for me, the power of your mind is incredible and is the most powerful tool ones self has. I started being happy again and laughing and being silly with my partner again. I worked so hard to get better and not only did I find my self again I found a better self. I discovered that one couldn’t just have a healthy diet to be healthy and needed to be overall happy with other areas in life such as relationships, career, physical activity and spirituality, our health really goes far beyond nutrition. I decided I wanted to find a career where I could help people and share my story and show people that you can heal yourself naturally. I want to teach people to trust themselves and their intuition and passion and to follow their heart and to start living their dream. I had discovered what I was truly passionate about and it was now very clear what I have come here to do. I am now a Integrative Nutrition Health Coach and Yoga Teacher.
Do I think this all happened for a reason? I would only have found that strong connection with yoga and mediation if I had got sick and I also would have never thought about becoming a Health Coach or realise the importance of eating a healthy balanced diet, I essentially would still be that person that was working a job they hated and being miserable, eating bad, pushing my self to go to the gym to lose weight on my tired body that had just worked and travelled for 10 hours, so did all of this happen for a reason? To get me on a path I never thought I would be on, a path that I love and am totally excited for…I like to think so. I do know that I am definitely happy with the new person I have become.
Am I still on my recovery journey? Yes, I still have bad days but I am nothing compared to what I used to be. I have improved dramatically and even when I have bad days I still remain positive. I have surrendered and trust the Universe has my back on this journey. I am so full of gratitude and love for everyday I am awake, for the new path that I am on, for the fresh air that I breathe and the nature that surrounds me, I am grateful for the people that have been on this journey with me, I say that my partner suffered the same journey as me because he was with me everyday taking care of me and feel we have both accomplished something together as a team. I want people to understand the importance of gratitude, self-love and a positive mindset, in any situation just say ‘I surrender and know the Universe has my back.’ ‘’Surrender allows us to step into our lives ready to receive completely able to manifest and willing to embrace everything, the good, the bad and the ugly with an open heart. It’s from this place that real magic happens’’ Claire Obeid.
I look forward to posting more about my journey and I promise my next post won’t be such a long one.
Love + Light